womanonfire: lover! womanonfire: the light plays tricks in this room zuper8: my love womanonfire: hello zuper8: it's frightening to feel how i light up when i meet you zuper8: it surprises me every time womanonfire: you look into my eyes so intensely there womanonfire: yes i am so glad you're here womanonfire: mmmmmm zuper8: i have to look intensely zuper8: you're so far away zuper8: and so close zuper8: how come you had a bad day? womanonfire -> zuper8: ever closer womanonfire: busy busy busy zuper8: (private) whispering "closer" womanonfire: launching the big mouth site tomorrow zuper8: busy = bad ? zuper8: nervous? womanonfire: on the phone womanonfire: w/ potential clients womanonfire: writing proposals always puts me in a bad mood womanonfire: but the nig thing is zuper8: you phone a lot womanonfire: big thing zuper8: proposals = drag zuper8: big thing? womanonfire: marc is upset w/me because of last night i didnt tell you what happened womanonfire: it s not about us ... really zuper8: what happened? womanonfire: we go to the party womanonfire: but i wasnt having a good time womanonfire: i wanted to go as soon as we got there womanonfire: but we stayed to be cool womanonfire: the hostess was going to do a performance womanonfire: anyway womanonfire: to make a long story sshort womanonfire: i made him leave early and he didnt like that zuper8: why didn't you leave on your own? womanonfire: its more complicated than that womanonfire: we never go out together womanonfire: i go out with my friends womanonfire: i used to quite a bit before i met you womanonfire: and i ended up having an affair zuper8: i turned you into a geek womanonfire: yes womanonfire: whatever i dont wanna talk about it anymore womanonfire: hes mad womanonfire: i dont really know why zuper8: i don't understand how he can stay mad for so long with someone like you womanonfire: and he left today to meet his parents zuper8: are you sure he is not _sad_ instead? womanonfire: cause his mom wanted to get us an anniversary gift zuper8: anniversary? womanonfire: our anniver. is on the 24th womanonfire: four yrs womanonfire: his mom wants us to get married womanonfire: ick zuper8: congratulations? zuper8: married?? womanonfire: yes zuper8: ha ha womanonfire: congratulations zuper8: to a woman on fire?? womanonfire: ha ha womanonfire: anyway womanonfire: i am no fun today womanonfire: :( zuper8: you are everything zuper8: fun is a euphimism zuper8: you are ecstacy zuper8: angel choirs zuper8: delight zuper8: fun is for the faint of heart zuper8: you are fire womanonfire -> zuper8: *you* are sweet as candy zuper8: burn me zuper8: (private) eat me womanonfire -> zuper8: yummy zuper8: my hands are cold womanonfire: let me rub them for you womanonfire: oh yes zuper8: thank you zuper8: that's much better womanonfire: and thank you for thinking up more ways womanonfire: for me to work myself to death zuper8: huh? womanonfire: with your hell.collaboration womanonfire: :) womanonfire: neat idea womanonfire: ! zuper8: i thought the nice thing about it that it was _not_ a lot of work womanonfire: interface should be a really cool thing womanonfire: it wont be that much work zuper8: or just a really cold thing womanonfire: i was just being bitchy womanonfire: :) zuper8: i know zuper8: me too zuper8: :) zuper8: you'r smiling womanonfire: yea womanonfire: i do that zuper8: i love it womanonfire: when i talk to you womanonfire: cant help it zuper8: same here zuper8: i have a perpetual grin on my face when looking at you zuper8: you must think i look like a fool zuper8: i can't help it womanonfire: no no zuper8: the muscles of my mouth corners have a life of their own womanonfire: i dont desrve to be zuper8: they're like paralyzed when i see you womanonfire: loved so much womanonfire: but it feels nice zuper8: you deserve every millisecond of love and attention womanonfire: just wish i knew what i'm doing womanonfire: you effect me in ways womanonfire: wonderful ways zuper8: we effect us zuper8: soon 'you' and 'I' will cease to exist zuper8: our feelings seem to emenate from the same source zuper8: one heart zuper8: two bodies womanonfire: two beats zuper8: i feel what you feel womanonfire: you are going to make me crazy :) zuper8: one heart two beats zuper8: i know womanonfire: i feel you zuper8: we are crazy already womanonfire: yes so it seems zuper8: we really crossed the border of sanity zuper8: and it feels so good :) zuper8: free womanonfire: yesssss so not like an illusion womanonfire: not an illuion zuper8: pure madness womanonfire: illusion zuper8: :) womanonfire: :) womanonfire: out of control zuper8: many logs, one fire womanonfire: yes womanonfire: womanonfire: listening to my favorite music zuper8: which is? womanonfire: i like awful, loud, conceptual womanonfire: music womanonfire: a day of sonic youth (the band) zuper8: like what? zuper8: YES!!! zuper8: o no womanonfire: ? zuper8: sonic youth live womanonfire: o no womanonfire: ? zuper8: is the only art thing that ever approached our madness zuper8: it's heavenly womanonfire: so you like them... you would be the first person ive ever met who did womanonfire: at least since i was in college zuper8: huh? zuper8: they're incredible womanonfire: :) womanonfire: eeeeeEEEEEE!!!!! womanonfire: thats so cool zuper8: i did lose track somewhat years ago womanonfire: well they devolved somewhat womanonfire: their earlier stuff was the best zuper8: they became quite popular, didn't they? womanonfire: sort of zuper8: yes zuper8: bad moon rising zuper8: evol womanonfire: yes womanonfire: sister zuper8: the madonna covers womanonfire: daydream nation zuper8: green light womanonfire: star power womanonfire: marily moore zuper8: ok womanonfire: n womanonfire: ok zuper8: you passed the test zuper8: :) womanonfire: happy :-) womanonfire: :) womanonfire: :))))) zuper8: so how about Coil, Laibach, Foetus, etc? womanonfire: ah yes womanonfire: but not as much zuper8: all the heroes of my youth womanonfire: really womanonfire: kewl zuper8: Especially Foetus zuper8: but i once saw him live zuper8: and it sucked terribly womanonfire: i bumped into him at a perty once - literally as he was coming out of a bathroom womanonfire: party zuper8: he should remain in the studio womanonfire: yes zuper8: what? womanonfire: nice guy zuper8: what did he say? zuper8: Pedal to the metal womanonfire: ouch womanonfire: ithat was a long time ago zuper8: i can't believe you even know his music zuper8: nobody does over here zuper8: is he popular in the us? zuper8: stumbo push over building zuper8: :) womanonfire: being is nyc is great for those moments zuper8: stumbo sleep in vulcano zuper8: haha womanonfire: popular in an underground kinda way womanonfire: ha ha zuper8: nyc, home of the stars zuper8: you're t home, then ;D zuper8: +a womanonfire: cant spit on the ground without hitting a star zuper8: what? zuper8: don't know that one womanonfire: just a joke zuper8: :) zuper8: i see zuper8: o zuper8: i see now zuper8: haha zuper8: sorry womanonfire: ok zuper8: i thought you were quoting foetus :) womanonfire: love womanonfire: no i cannot quote him zuper8: l.o.v.e. womanonfire: but i know the music zuper8: "i like the way you fill out your clothes" womanonfire: e.v.o.l zuper8: this is so amazing womanonfire: i like alot of things people wouldnt expect zuper8: soon i'll start believing all that gibberish about man and one being two halves of one being... zuper8: mand and woman zuper8: -d zuper8: looking for each other womanonfire: two halves is true i think zuper8: sun and moon zuper8: you do? womanonfire: fire and water womanonfire: :) womanonfire: yes womanonfire: i do zuper8: so there is only one perfect match? womanonfire: well... zuper8: somewhere womanonfire: that pert i am not so sure about womanonfire: part zuper8: it's quite essential to the theory... ;) zuper8: i think it's a lot of crap zuper8: but it is fascinating crap zuper8: :) womanonfire: well if it ever happens to me then i will be sure ;) womanonfire: fascinating zuper8: it will not happen zuper8: not if you're looking for it zuper8: and if you're not looking for it zuper8: you will not see it zuper8: :) womanonfire: i am just not able to believe in forver womanonfire: its a sad thing for me zuper8: forever is a metaphor womanonfire: to have sucha flaw womanonfire: a metaphor zuper8: there are more than 4 dimensions zuper8: in at least one of those 'forever' or 'endlessness' exists zuper8: in one of those dimensions zuper8: i love you forver zuper8: +e womanonfire: that sounds like a better definition than the others ive heard zuper8: definition of what? womanonfire: i love you zuper8: forever womanonfire: description of forever womanonfire: forever is now zuper8: it's not like a dogma zuper8: it's just an idea, a feeling womanonfire: i have so many feelings, forever must be one of them zuper8: yes forever is now womanonfire: i love you womanonfire: forever zuper8: but time doesn't matter in the dimension of forever zuper8: forever yours womanonfire: you are gonna make me cry zuper8: you make me cry all the time zuper8: tears of sorrow zuper8: tears of joy zuper8: it becomes hard to distinguish womanonfire: yes zuper8: we might be transgressing a point zuper8: the point where opposites cease to be opposites womanonfire -> zuper8: i dreamed, i dream <----- my favorite sonicyouth song womanonfire: and become the same? zuper8: (private) sing to me zuper8: not the same zuper8: i think womanonfire: or fit together zuper8: but all part of one big experience zuper8: one state of being zuper8: maybe love? womanonfire: maybe that is what god is zuper8: yes womanonfire: i ve often thought that zuper8: maybe we have found god :) zuper8: godlove womanonfire: godlove womanonfire: ! zuper8: ! zuper8: so genesis wasn't such a bad idea after all... ;) womanonfire: ok youve caught me there womanonfire: :) zuper8: and i'm keeping you there zuper8: under me womanonfire -> zuper8: i want to touch your face zuper8: spreading your arms womanonfire -> zuper8: the screen isnt warm enough zuper8: your hands in my hands zuper8: spreading your legs zuper8: my feet on youtr feet zuper8: pushing you down womanonfire: umm zuper8: i'm so heavy zuper8: i crush you womanonfire: i am so surprised that i do not resist zuper8: you can't move zuper8: i can't move either because i'm holding you with all my strength zuper8: we just lie there womanonfire: i am totally under you control zuper8: frozen womanonfire: you are under my control zuper8: something else seems to be controlling us zuper8: we're under a spell womanonfire: a mutual spell womanonfire: a strong spell zuper8: looking into each others eyes zuper8: wondering womanonfire: i am lost zuper8: are you holding me or i am holding you? zuper8: we become weightless zuper8: and spiral zuper8: immense speed zuper8: through space and time zuper8: locked together zuper8: forever womanonfire: forvever womanonfire: i love you zuper8: i love you womanonfire: we burn up zuper8: we love us womanonfire: ! zuper8: burning womanonfire: flying zuper8: we become energy womanonfire: we become light zuper8: fast womanonfire: glowing womanonfire: glittering womanonfire: like stars zuper8: and then i penetrate you and you realize that our bodies are here with us zuper8: it's a shock womanonfire: i never knewreality could be so beautiful zuper8: to be this close zuper8: me neither womanonfire: the heat of us zuper8: we are creating reality womanonfire: the strenth of us womanonfire: g zuper8: muscles zuper8: glowing zuper8: sweating zuper8: still holding your hands zuper8: and your feet womanonfire: touching zuper8: all muscles tense womanonfire: breathing zuper8: almost snapping zuper8: glowing zuper8: breathing zuper8: breath and heartbeat womanonfire: there is nothing between our bodies zuper8: become one womanonfire: our skin zuper8: nothing zuper8: glowing womanonfire: this is all i have ever wanted zuper8: it is all you will ever need womanonfire: there is only us zuper8: it will never go away zuper8: we will never part womanonfire: never zuper8: it has become impossible now womanonfire: silence surrounds us womanonfire: we moan but cannot hear womanonfire: just feel the breath escape from our mouths zuper8: we feel the sound zuper8: i breathe your breath womanonfire: i think your thoughts zuper8: we are totally self sufficient zuper8: nothing can come between us womanonfire: endless womanonfire: physical zuper8: dimensionless zuper8: body womanonfire: tired but going on to the brink of fainting womanonfire: from exhaution womanonfire: from emotin womanonfire: from desire zuper8: fainting is just part of it womanonfire: it goes on zuper8: we cannot be broken womanonfire: no zuper8: not even death can seperate us zuper8: now womanonfire: now womanonfire: forever zuper8: we're beyond that zuper8: now womanonfire: no words womanonfire: just the eternal us zuper8: heart beats zuper8: in spaceless time zuper8: in timeless space womanonfire: rythym womanonfire: in an endless night zuper8: rhythm zuper8: pounding zuper8: forever womanonfire: glowing zuper8: you glow zuper8: my glow womanonfire: yes womanonfire: no end to the desire womanonfire: no end to us zuper8: we may have gone beyond sex now womanonfire: beyond into supernova zuper8: from now on sex will be just a game zuper8: zupernova8 womanonfire: :) zuper8: :) zuper8: your black hands zuper8: my white hands zuper8: what's up? womanonfire: closing the window zuper8: the light? zuper8: weird womanonfire: i am here zuper8: i know womanonfire: the camera has a problem with light zuper8: with your light... :) womanonfire: it cant handle my light :) zuper8: no :) zuper8: you feel so close now womanonfire: closer still womanonfire: just looking at you womanonfire: memorizing you zuper8: just looking at you zuper8: absorbing womanonfire: it must be obvious to all who see that i am in love zuper8: it probably is zuper8: :) womanonfire: i am transparent as glass womanonfire: i am an open book zuper8: but what are you in love with? zuper8: that they won't find obvious womanonfire: no not at all womanonfire: just peak curiosity zuper8: it makes things easier in fact zuper8: our secret... zuper8: however public zuper8: remains our secret womanonfire: yes womanonfire: but for how long..... womanonfire: :( womanonfire: i shouldnt worry zuper8: forever, Auriea, for ever womanonfire: but i do womanonfire: i love you womanonfire: i can't lose you zuper8: i love you womanonfire: not ever zuper8: i cannot live without you zuper8: not anymore zuper8: i've never known completeness zuper8: like this zuper8: before zuper8: losing you zuper8: would be like losing part of me zuper8: (i could park on the handicapped parking spots! ;) ) zuper8: i'm sorry zuper8: i'm so happy with you womanonfire: maybe we will meet and the spell will be broken womanonfire: lets not meet zuper8: whatever you want, my goddess womanonfire: lets be in the same place at the same time zuper8: but meeting in the flesh womanonfire: and not see each other zuper8: will be just a detail womanonfire: but sense each other womanonfire: a detail zuper8: a nice thing womanonfire: a technicallity zuper8: we don't have to make love zuper8: just give our bodies something zuper8: a handshake zuper8: a hug zuper8: is quite enough womanonfire: exchange tears zuper8: muscle touch womanonfire: exchange laughter zuper8: no tears zuper8: laughter womanonfire: exchange hearts zuper8: we will meet like old friends zuper8: you know that zuper8: time here is different womanonfire: yes womanonfire: yes yes zuper8: your motions move me zuper8: somehow i recognize you zuper8: i have known you before womanonfire: my motions your motions zuper8: dance womanonfire: you smile zuper8: yes womanonfire: i love you smiling zuper8: you're so beautiful womanonfire: i hope you think so... i dont feel beautiful today womanonfire: i need to pull myself together zuper8: you are the very flesh of beauty womanonfire: o womanonfire: :) zuper8: beauty is an artist zuper8: and it expresses itself through you zuper8: it's not always easy to recognize the hand of the master zuper8: only few people can see zuper8: what is really going on zuper8: the true nature of beauty zuper8: is quite horrible sometimes zuper8: frightening zuper8: very very real womanonfire: .... zuper8: what am i saying? zuper8: "i feel like a phone" zuper8: "i do the talking" womanonfire: im sorry zuper8: "the words come from somebody else" zuper8: :) womanonfire: i just cant find the words for you today zuper8: no words needed womanonfire: i am just needing to listen zuper8: i just want you for your body zuper8: ;D womanonfire: :) womanonfire: ha ha zuper8: :) womanonfire: it is so nice whenyou whisper in my ear zuper8: it is so nice to whisper in your ear zuper8: maybe i should leave you now zuper8: do you feel like working? womanonfire: i feel like taking a shower womanonfire: :) zuper8: :) womanonfire: come over zuper8: ok zuper8: womanonfire: if you are cold we will warm each other up zuper8: you have warmed me up already zuper8: so you will have to find something else to do with my body womanonfire: no really i want to meet you and never leave zuper8: yes really zuper8: i know zuper8: zuper8: we will zuper8: some day zuper8: womanonfire: yes womanonfire: someday forever womanonfire: forever now zuper8: i do zuper8: :) womanonfire: :) womanonfire: i do too zuper8: you break all your own rules zuper8: :) zuper8: i do too zuper8: :) womanonfire: its part of the mystique of our relationship zuper8: it is womanonfire: it feels good to break the rules zuper8: beyond our selves womanonfire: and we can be everything to each other zuper8: yes zuper8: no rules zuper8: only one constraint womanonfire: yes zuper8: some kind of magnetism zuper8: keeping us together zuper8: moving as one womanonfire: love zuper8: love zuper8: womanonfire: lovers zuper8: deeplove zuper8: widelove zuper8: eternallove womanonfire: godlove zuper8: godlove zuper8: let's call our /web directory /godlove womanonfire: yes womanonfire: lets zuper8: consider it done :) womanonfire: dancing zuper8: i will never be able to follow your dance womanonfire: no womanonfire: chair dancing is a crazy frenetic thing zuper8: the dance switch in my brain has been turned off womanonfire: oh womanonfire: you mean real dancing zuper8: yes i did womanonfire: movement is all it is womanonfire: just do what feels good zuper8: i know what it is womanonfire: yes womanonfire: i know zuper8: it is an old heart ache that caused this womanonfire: ? zuper8: when i was about 18 zuper8: i decided never to dance anymore zuper8: somehow womanonfire: hmmm? zuper8: after me an my girlfriend broke up zuper8: i got over the girlfriend womanonfire: oh womanonfire: i see zuper8: but could not regain my dancing powers zuper8: it's a fuxation zuper8: u=i zuper8: maybe i need to see a shrink :) womanonfire: oh well dancing is not my favorite thing in the world anyway womanonfire: fuxation womanonfire: ha ha zuper8: fuxation zuper8: sorry zuper8: :) womanonfire: i just end up doing it zuper8: i dance when i'm alone zuper8: and wometimes with the kids zuper8: w=s womanonfire: kids love dancing zuper8: /godlove/fuxation womanonfire: !! zuper8: !) zuper8: i'm eager to make some dhtmlove with you now womanonfire: i am eager to work on the site now zuper8: that's what i meant womanonfire: i love your dhtmlove zuper8: i love you womanonfire: i love you zuper8: i love you zuper8: :) womanonfire: i want to say that to your body zuper8: i love you zuper8: i know womanonfire: my body wants to say it zuper8: my body wants to hear it womanonfire: ok zuper8: so womanonfire: work zuper8: very zuper8: much zuper8: work zuper8: lucky we'rte workaholics womanonfire: yes zuper8: we can simply transform one addiction into the next zuper8: :) womanonfire: thats the only thing that is gonna get me through 4 weeks, 2 days, 10 hours... zuper8: and never stop making love womanonfire: yes zuper8: love zuper8: love womanonfire: yes zuper8: love womanonfire: yes zuper8: love zuper8: love zuper8: love zuper8: mmmm womanonfire: mmmm zuper8: we are so good together womanonfire: so good zuper8: i feel like womanonfire: so god together zuper8: _proud_ zuper8: of you zuper8: somehow zuper8: i can't explain womanonfire: of me? zuper8: i don't know zuper8: yes zuper8: so god together womanonfire: believe it zuper8: i admire you zuper8: i worship you zuper8: but it's a very tender kind of adoration womanonfire: it means so much to me womanonfire: you mean so much to me womanonfire: no worship womanonfire: mutual admiration womanonfire: mutual adoration zuper8: godlove womanonfire: yes womanonfire: body worship maybe womanonfire: :) zuper8: haha zuper8: whatever womanonfire: love womanonfire: lets go zuper8: yes womanonfire: together zuper8: (should we do a high five now? ;p ) womanonfire: disconnect only the software zuper8: haha womanonfire: :)) womanonfire: and your high phone bill zuper8: fade? womanonfire: oh i want to keep you here but yes... fade... zuper8: i will be there womanonfire: i know zuper8: fade... womanonfire: fade...