zuper8: finally! :) womanonfire: at last zuper8: my love... zuper8: damn i've missed you zuper8: i love you very much, you know womanonfire: yes i know womanonfire: its a mess here zuper8: how can i help you? womanonfire: you cannot... i must help myself zuper8: i'd do anything for you womanonfire: nothing anybody else can do zuper8: i'd roll you a cigarette womanonfire: YES! zuper8: have you seen cloud.html ? womanonfire: that is what crashed me a minute ago :-) womanonfire: i will go look now tho zuper8: sorry it crashed you zuper8: so, marc is out? womanonfire: no he just knows everything now and knows that i need to talk to you womanonfire: he is being very level headed about things right now zuper8: that's very mature of him, we both have admirable partners! womanonfire: yes womanonfire: so i cant talk too long but it was imparitive that we have contact zuper8: ok, let's be efficient then zuper8: do you have any plans? womanonfire: not yet... we are still at a stage where things are indefinite...i need a day or so to .... make this work or something... i am so confused and my head hurts and i dont know how to feel or what i should do or where i should go womanonfire: it is a total mess zuper8: take all the time you want womanonfire: i just cant fight with him anymore right now zuper8: i am working out an agreement with veerle zuper8: the idea is that i would be part time in her house to take care of the house and the children (give her her life back) and the other part i would share with you, and you only womanonfire: cloud :-) womanonfire: i see zuper8: cloud :)! zuper8: veerle is considering moving to amsterdam after all... womanonfire: oh really! womanonfire: surprising zuper8: now we have to find two places to live... :) womanonfire: hahahaha womanonfire: reality around here is... zuper8: veerle is incredible, i really love her; but i'm simply not in love with her anymore, i'm in love with you womanonfire: i have to figure out so many things womanonfire: the work is one thing womanonfire: we are committed to things this and next month zuper8: take your time, i am here, for you zuper8: but can you stay with marc emotionally? womanonfire: sigh .... womanonfire: emotionally i am numb right now.... i just feel sadness womanonfire: and missing you womanonfire: so much zuper8: don't feel sad, think of our ecstasy, it is still there, inside of you womanonfire: he wants to work it out womanonfire: i dont know if its possible womanonfire: i feel love for him zuper8: what does he mean by 'work it out'? womanonfire: i feel love for you womanonfire: says he can change.... do anything i want womanonfire: i just dont want him to do anything womanonfire: aaaah womanonfire: tooo much zuper8: maybe he can change zuper8: but will the two of you ever meet the standards the two of us have set? womanonfire: i think the issue isnt that he needs to change zuper8: i'm sorry if i sound pushy womanonfire: but that i need something else zuper8: but i want you womanonfire: that i want womanonfire: the sun, the moon womanonfire: the ocean, the waves zuper8: if you need something that he can't give you, then you have to leave him, in one way or another womanonfire: me, you zuper8: the eternal beach :) zuper8: the laughter womanonfire: but i have so much here that i will be leaving... i look around and see my life.... my whole world womanonfire: it will be gone zuper8: the impaling ecstasy : zuper8: i know womanonfire: i will be starting completely over zuper8: i'm looking at ten years here myself womanonfire: yes i know darling zuper8: you don't have to seperate completely from marc womanonfire: yes i do... he will never want to see me again zuper8: i see zuper8: i'm sorry zuper8: are you sure? i mean: maybe after some time... womanonfire: maybe...... womanonfire: i just want to many things at once womanonfire: i love you womanonfire: i know that womanonfire: but that is all i know womanonfire: i need a cigarette ... thats the other thing i know :-) zuper8: i'm a nice guy :) zuper8: don't be afraid zuper8: i wish i could be with you now, hold you, kiss your tears zuper8: i can make all the demons go away zuper8: you know it zuper8: anyway i will stop advertising myself now womanonfire: my demons need blood and souls ;-) zuper8: come and get mine! :) womanonfire: i must go womanonfire: i will be more in contact now zuper8: i love you womanonfire: i love you too zuper8: i remember our smiles... zuper8: our love womanonfire: me too zuper8: is strong womanonfire: i remember holding you zuper8: we are one womanonfire: i wont let go zuper8: never zuper8: till the seas run dry womanonfire: till the eart stops turning zuper8: this is the beginning of forever womanonfire: bye for now zuper8: have a good sleep later zuper8: i hope you follow jef's advice :) womanonfire: disconnect only the software zuper8: only the software zuper8: you know you are mine zuper8: womanonfire zuper8: let me just look at you womanonfire: yes zuper8: you're smiling and laughing... zuper8: i adore you womanonfire: friends help zuper8: they do! womanonfire: paused womanonfire: oh zuper8: :) womanonfire: we do look good together dont we :) zuper8: a paerfect coupls! :) everyone can see it! :D zuper8: evidence :) womanonfire: evidence womanonfire: makes me feel better to see it womanonfire: i took screenshots :) zuper8: me too, making cloud.html completely convinced me :) womanonfire: thank you my love zuper8: i took a lot of work :) zuper8: evidence zuper8: objective! :) womanonfire: i will do my best to be strong... take jef's advice womanonfire: its just so hard zuper8: and that was just a little kiss session in the morning in between coffee and breakfast :) zuper8: be strong, but take all the time you need if time makes things easier zuper8: i am here for you zuper8: always womanonfire: passion for you womanonfire: always zuper8: godpassion zuper8: this is love without direction zuper8: just one cloud of love zuper8: going everywhere zuper8: we are in it womanonfire: gotta go now.... i will get through the pain zuper8: you will zuper8: it will bite you once in a while womanonfire: bye zuper8: but you will get through it zuper8: bye