zuper8: my love!
zuper8: let me kiss your tears
womanonfire: all gone\
womanonfire: 
womanonfire: 
zuper8: shall i phone instead?
womanonfire: no wait
zuper8: no no all begun!
womanonfire: just stay here
womanonfire: stay here
zuper8: i am here
zuper8: forever
zuper8: hush now, i know you know
zuper8: you did the right thing
womanonfire: did i
zuper8: yes
zuper8: you followed your heart, we will make us happy
womanonfire: i have nowhere to go
zuper8: no more lies
womanonfire: i have three days
zuper8: three days for what?
womanonfire: to get out of here
zuper8: i thought the apartment was yours?
womanonfire: i will stay with friends i guess
womanonfire: we shared it
zuper8: shall i come to New York?
womanonfire: hold on marc is leaving 
zuper8: i'm holding on
zuper8: i love you
womanonfire: he is going to his parents home for now
zuper8: why don't we both visit jef and gael in anacortes?
womanonfire: that would be nice 
zuper8: it's very peaceful there
womanonfire: yes
zuper8: i need to go away from here for a while to, I think
womanonfire: i have so much crap to do here
zuper8: postpone the crap for a week
womanonfire: i knew this is how it would be though
womanonfire: i cant you dont understand...
zuper8: let me help you
zuper8: i have time
womanonfire: please help me
zuper8: there's nothing i'd rather do
womanonfire: help me
zuper8: anything for you
womanonfire: help me
zuper8: tell me how
zuper8: anything
zuper8: i'm holding you
womanonfire: tell me what have i done....
zuper8: my arms are around you
zuper8: close
zuper8: i kiss your head
zuper8: hold your hands
zuper8: you have done what had to be done
zuper8: there was no easy way to do it
womanonfire: i have to say goodbye to my cat too...
womanonfire: 
zuper8: why?
zuper8: don't cry
zuper8: everything will be allright
womanonfire: noplace to go yet he is gonna take care of him til i figure out what the hell i am doing
zuper8: we were meant to be
womanonfire: oh god
zuper8: i am here, Auriea, all yours
zuper8: you are not alone
zuper8: let's go to anacortes!
zuper8: what crap do you need to do so urgently?
zuper8: do you have wine in the house? :)
zuper8: (private) i'm so proud of you
womanonfire: i have a house with all this stuff if i leave that stuff has to go SOMEWHERE!!!
womanonfire: no wine
zuper8: sure, but not right away
womanonfire: just some vodka
zuper8: you can take a break now
womanonfire: which i am about to drink
zuper8: yummie vodka :)
womanonfire: every drop of as soon as marc walks out that door
zuper8: don't drink too much, just enough to round off the edges
womanonfire: i am a fucking monster 
zuper8: excess will make you more sad
zuper8: yes, and i am a monster too
zuper8: i'm completely in there with you, don't forget that
womanonfire: i havent forgotten
zuper8: we are one, also in this misery
womanonfire: im just still deep inside this hell
womanonfire: the beginning of it
womanonfire: the end of this thing
zuper8: from now on things will only get better
womanonfire: i spent so much of my life on
zuper8: you have done the worst part
zuper8: all your life was a preperation
zuper8: nothing is thrown away
zuper8: it's the basis
womanonfire: i hope you are right
zuper8: we're heading for heaven now
womanonfire: yes
zuper8: i am right
zuper8: believe in me like i believe in you, believe in us
womanonfire: i could not have done this if i did not believe
zuper8: i know, sorry
zuper8: thank you
zuper8: i love you
womanonfire: i ll be right back\
zuper8: i will be here
zuper8: gotta get some more wine...
zuper8: back with the good stuff
womanonfire: gonna get that vodka
zuper8: the womanonfire on the phone... it's an icon... ;)
zuper8: gezondheid!
womanonfire: well now we are alone
zuper8: the beginning of forever :)
zuper8: let the ecstasy begin!
womanonfire: forever
womanonfire: yes!
womanonfire: i cant be happy for us yet
zuper8: i know
zuper8: but you will soon
womanonfire: i dont know what saying that stuff to veeelre was like
womanonfire: but jesus
zuper8: you do know
zuper8: it's the same thing
womanonfire: i have NEVER seen anyone so hurt before
zuper8: me neither
womanonfire: let  me call you on the phone for a minute
zuper8: but we have to be strong
womanonfire: i need to hear tyou
zuper8: ok, i'll have to log out for that (only one phone line)
womanonfire: ok
womanonfire: whats the # again :)
zuper8: 32 55 20 88 63
womanonfire: ok
zuper8: ok?
zuper8: seeya
zuper8: are you back already?
womanonfire:  yes
zuper8: have a look at the e8z homepage now, i have made a celebration gif :)
womanonfire: ok
zuper8: mmm cigarettes! :)
womanonfire: mmmm
womanonfire:  its beautiful
zuper8: just a temporary news flash ;)
zuper8: you know, all the people who know us and for whom I thought out love was a secret, were not in the least surprised when i mentioned troubles at home and love between us... somehow it seems very obvious to everyone
womanonfire: yes
zuper8: i didn't know it was
womanonfire: me neither
zuper8: so there is something objective about this ;)
zuper8: we will be so good together :)
zuper8: we have done so much for each other
zuper8: to become one
womanonfire: marc has called sobbing from the road
zuper8: is he still on the phone?
zuper8: shall i leave alone for a while?
womanonfire: no
zuper8: ok :)
zuper8: i feel like smoking everything i have
zuper8: o my heart...
womanonfire: it s ok
womanonfire: my heart
zuper8: i know
womanonfire: i know this is the right thing
womanonfire: i KNOW
zuper8: i do too
zuper8: I DO TOO
zuper8: :)
womanonfire: i am positive
womanonfire: NO doubts
womanonfire: NO buts
zuper8: NO buts
zuper8: haha
womanonfire: :)
womanonfire: gate thought we were faking:)
zuper8: what?
zuper8: no
womanonfire: in his email
zuper8: which one?
womanonfire: i only read half of it through my tears but it sounded like he thought we were faking
womanonfire: whatever
womanonfire: it IS quite real
zuper8: it is real
zuper8: very
womanonfire: my friends are going to stop by later
zuper8: i haven't never expeienced anything more real
womanonfire: me neither
zuper8: i want to stop by too :)
womanonfire: you are remarkable
womanonfire: amazing
zuper8: i wish i wasn't that far
womanonfire: i have know that since 1996
zuper8: you are remarkable
zuper8: we are amazing
womanonfire: i maybe even loved you then
zuper8: if we only had known that since 1990! ;)
womanonfire: but didnt know you
zuper8: i knew nothing before i met you
womanonfire: we are one now
zuper8: then i knew everything
zuper8: yes, one :)
zuper8: no more hiding, no more lies
womanonfire: no more
zuper8: i know... where's my microphone??? 
zuper8: ONE
womanonfire: anothr cigarette
zuper8: yes yes cigarette...
zuper8: so when are where do we celebrate?
zuper8: are=and
womanonfire: hmmmmmmmm
zuper8: a beach?
womanonfire: not in nyc thats for sure
zuper8: :)
womanonfire: yes a beach
womanonfire: !
zuper8: i'd love to come to nyc
womanonfire: barcelona!
zuper8: you should have seen tenesse valley in sf: the ocean!!!
zuper8: barcelona... yes... we could meet jodi ;)
womanonfire: it seems so criminal top
womanonfire: oops
womanonfire: criminal to be so happy now
zuper8: it is not
womanonfire: but i am
zuper8: everyone will be better off
zuper8: in the end
womanonfire: i hope so
zuper8: everything is better than lies
womanonfire: yes
zuper8: godlove=true
womanonfire: YES!!!
zuper8: that's all i want to hear you say :)
zuper8: yes!
womanonfire: you know
zuper8: yes to life
womanonfire: you never
zuper8: yes to love
womanonfire: counted 
womanonfire: my dreds
womanonfire: :)))
zuper8: we will have plenty of time for that
womanonfire: :)
zuper8: i will count them one a day :)
zuper8: maybe one a year
zuper8: :)))
womanonfire: we will dye each one you count a different color
womanonfire: :)
zuper8: i feel almost sick...
zuper8: this is so overwhelming
zuper8: so many different colors... :)
zuper8: ff0000
zuper8: cc0000
zuper8: 990000
zuper8: :)
womanonfire: ha ha ha
zuper8: you should have 256 dreds
zuper8: :)
zuper8: do we party first and then work or vice versa?
zuper8: (we should do both at the same time)
womanonfire: it was the realization that if you were close by i would have left alredy that mademe do it
womanonfire: i was thinking distance doesnt matter
zuper8: i love you
zuper8: distance is just a detail, a temporary thing
womanonfire: yes
womanonfire:  we are so  clse already
womanonfire: close
zuper8: so close
zuper8: happiness
womanonfire: i need some music
zuper8: what shall we play?
womanonfire: portishead or lamb?
zuper8: handel's hallelujah? :)
womanonfire: :)
zuper8: lamb!
womanonfire: !
zuper8: it was already in the drive... :)
zuper8: it was playing when i connected to you and i paused it when we were on the phone
womanonfire: if i should die this very moment
zuper8: number 9
zuper8: ok
womanonfire: i wouldnt fear
zuper8: completeness
womanonfire: like being here
womanonfire: loving evey breath of you
zuper8: i'm crying
womanonfire: could we stay right here
zuper8: wanna love you till the seas run dry
womanonfire: wanna love you till the seas run dry
zuper8: i've found the one i've waited for
womanonfire: :)
womanonfire: the one
zuper8: i love you!!!!
zuper8: all this time i've loved you
womanonfire: all this time ive loved you
zuper8: true peace
womanonfire: and searched this human race
womanonfire: here my heart know calm
womanonfire: bathed in your sighs
zuper8: till the end of time
womanonfire: till the earth stop turning
zuper8: the one i've waited for
womanonfire: till the sea run dry
womanonfire: the one
womanonfire: ive waited for
zuper8: i love you
womanonfire: oh michael
zuper8: i love you
zuper8: i love you
womanonfire: all ive known
zuper8: i love you
womanonfire: all ive done
zuper8: leading to this
womanonfire: was leading to this
womanonfire: :)
womanonfire: till the end of time
zuper8: sweet tears of joy :)
womanonfire: the one
zuper8: the one
womanonfire: i love
womanonfire: Y     O     U
womanonfire: the one ive waited for
zuper8: i love you
womanonfire: so crazy
womanonfire: !!!!!!!!!!
zuper8: yes
zuper8: :)
zuper8: i can smell you
womanonfire: i can feel you
zuper8: i becomes us
womanonfire: even marc said "its too late... hes inside you"
zuper8: i am there, i am here, you are here
womanonfire: i thought that was extemely perceptive of him :))
womanonfire: ha ha ha ha
zuper8: it was
zuper8: ha ha ha ha
zuper8: i want to broadcast this
zuper8: :)
womanonfire: ha ha h
womanonfire: OH
zuper8: WE LOVE EACH OTHER!
womanonfire: 	wWE LOVE EACH OTHER
womanonfire: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
zuper8: WE ARE HERE
womanonfire: YES
zuper8: inside of love
womanonfire: KISSSSSS
zuper8: we are love
zuper8: kissssssssssssssssssssssssss
zuper8: ssssssssssssssssss
zuper8: sssssssssssssssssssssssssss
womanonfire: GODLOVEBODYSOULHEARTEVERYTHINGIHAVEKIS
zuper8: sssssssssssss
zuper8: ikisseverygodlovebodyyouhave!
zuper8: i kiss your soul
zuper8: yes
zuper8: yes
zuper8: yes
zuper8: we will be perfect
zuper8: we are perfect
womanonfire -> zuper8: he is going to keep tring to get me back ... these next days are not going to be easy for me ...
womanonfire -> zuper8: but i am so happy that i have done this
zuper8: (private) i know, i'm in those next days at the moment...
zuper8: (private) me too, it was the hardest thing
zuper8: (private) now the only thing you have to do is repeat yourself, that's easy
womanonfire -> zuper8: i feel so bad yet so good at the same time
zuper8: (private) i know
zuper8: (private) it is horror and joy
womanonfire -> zuper8: i cant stand the thought of him in pain ... that is the hardest part
zuper8: (private) me neither
womanonfire -> zuper8: but i cant stay out of pity
zuper8: (private) i don't want her to feel pain
zuper8: (private) no, pity is not a good motivation
zuper8: (private) also they would expect things of us that we can't give them
womanonfire -> zuper8: no
womanonfire -> zuper8: right
womanonfire -> zuper8: no willing to give it
zuper8: (private) we can't help it
womanonfire -> zuper8: we must break free
womanonfire -> zuper8: and be one
zuper8: (private) i am very willing to give it to veerle, i just can't, it's not there
zuper8: (private) yes
zuper8: (private) break free
zuper8: (private) we ARE free DAMMIT! :)
womanonfire -> zuper8: it is there for me but not what would be right in the long run
zuper8: (private) your are wonderful
womanonfire -> zuper8: i am not the same person i was teo years ago when things started going bad
womanonfire -> zuper8: two
womanonfire -> zuper8: willing to just accept
zuper8: (private) i have changed a lot too
womanonfire -> zuper8: and wait
womanonfire -> zuper8: and wait and wait
zuper8: (private) we have everything we want in the palm of each other's hand
womanonfire -> zuper8: yes
womanonfire: NOW
womanonfire: portishead... from the beginning
womanonfire: :)
zuper8: (private) okidoki
zuper8: (private) btw did you ever let lamb run on after it ends? or was it esthero? or both?
zuper8: (private) after some ten minutes there is more
womanonfire -> zuper8: when i am horny and i close my eyes it is you i see ... not him
womanonfire -> zuper8: it has been you for a month if not more
zuper8: (private) i love you
womanonfire -> zuper8: i love you
zuper8: (private) i want you
zuper8: (private) i have you.
womanonfire -> zuper8: i want you more than anything
womanonfire -> zuper8: yes nowyou have me totally
zuper8: (private) you have me
zuper8: (private) totally
zuper8: (private) forever
womanonfire -> zuper8: forever
zuper8: (private) it's amazing
womanonfire -> zuper8: believe it
zuper8: (private) it's true
womanonfire -> zuper8: it is rieality and fantaZ! now
zuper8: (private) now what am i gonna do with you? ;)
womanonfire -> zuper8: exactly!
zuper8: (private) haha
womanonfire -> zuper8: ha ha ha ha ha 
zuper8: (private) here comes trouble
zuper8: (private) hahahaha
womanonfire -> zuper8: yup!
zuper8: (private) i love it!
zuper8: (private) :)
zuper8: (private) entropy... :)
womanonfire -> zuper8: :)
womanonfire -> zuper8: total chaos
womanonfire -> zuper8: :)
womanonfire -> zuper8: zuperchaos
zuper8: (private) ecstasy
zuper8: (private) is ours
womanonfire -> zuper8: you seduced me ... i seduced you
zuper8: (private) we were ready
zuper8: (private) we needed something
zuper8: (private) we were it
womanonfire -> zuper8: ecstasy is ours alone
womanonfire -> zuper8: i cant wait to see you again
womanonfire -> zuper8: to be with you forever
zuper8: (private) two burning hearts
zuper8: (private) forever
womanonfire -> zuper8: yes
zuper8: (private) close close close
womanonfire -> zuper8: two
womanonfire -> zuper8: in the fire
zuper8: (private) kiss your ears
zuper8: (private) lick your fingers
zuper8: (private) order pizza
zuper8: (private) :)
womanonfire -> zuper8: :)
zuper8: (private) no time for anything but godlove
womanonfire -> zuper8: not needing anything but godlove
womanonfire -> zuper8: and cigarettes :)
zuper8: (private) and lots of money
womanonfire -> zuper8: yes lots and lots of money!
womanonfire -> zuper8: i have expensive american tastes :)
zuper8: (private) great!
zuper8: (private) i have no money whatsoever! :D
womanonfire -> zuper8: cool
womanonfire -> zuper8: i have so much work we can do together
womanonfire -> zuper8: pays really well!
zuper8: (private) i can't wait
zuper8: (private) we will do the greatest things together
zuper8: (private) they will pay us lots for crashing browsers
womanonfire: i  will meet with the elektra records people after all
zuper8: (private) when?
womanonfire: get us that job
womanonfire: monday or tuesday
zuper8: (private) i haven't heard from lamb yet, we should stalk them! ;)
womanonfire: yes!
womanonfire: portishead too!
zuper8: (private) they're probably younger than we are
womanonfire: good they need our guidence and expertise
zuper8: (private) yeah, portishead
zuper8: (private) i don't know if those bands have any real money though...
womanonfire: who cares
zuper8: (private) right :)
zuper8: (private) love seeing you smoke
zuper8: (private) bad habbit you can indulge in with me :)
womanonfire: but when you smile oh how i feel so good
womanonfire: that i can hardly wait to hold you
zuper8: (private) i smile because you make me feel good
zuper8: (private) hold hold hold
zuper8: (private) all mine
zuper8: (private) you have to be
zuper8: (private) cloud
zuper8: (private) number 9
womanonfire: make no mistake you shant escape tehthered and tied theres nowhere to hide from me
zuper8: (private) i sure hope so
zuper8: (private) :)
womanonfire: :)))
womanonfire: so dont resist
womanonfire: we shall exist
zuper8: (private) never
zuper8: (private) force me if you think i resist
zuper8: (private) until the day i die
zuper8: (private) i want to be in you forever
zuper8: (private) i'm dizzy
womanonfire: meeee tooooo
zuper8: (private) :)
zuper8: (private) :)))))))))
zuper8: i love you so much, you are so right for me
zuper8: we can share everything
womanonfire: i will
zuper8: i don't need to hide anything form you
womanonfire: no nothing
zuper8: i can be my silly self
womanonfire: and i will certainly be my silly self
womanonfire: phone!
zuper8: phone!
womanonfire: my friends have received the news
womanonfire: onw by one
zuper8: were they happy?
womanonfire: they want to ccome over and make sure i am ok
zuper8: good
zuper8: i have to go to bed soon
zuper8: i'm so dizzy
womanonfire: it willbe alot of people here so i will be alright
womanonfire: but i stil feel bad
womanonfire: guilty
womanonfire: and wrong
womanonfire: in a way
zuper8: you *are* guilty
zuper8: but you are not wrong!
womanonfire: yes
zuper8: yes
womanonfire: not wrong
womanonfire: R  I  G  H  T
zuper8: right :)
womanonfire: :)
womanonfire: so right
zuper8: :)
womanonfire: soooooooooo right
zuper8: i long to touch you
zuper8: again
zuper8: and again
zuper8: and again
womanonfire: yes
zuper8: and again
zuper8: and again
zuper8: i will mail jef before i go to bed :)
zuper8: he'll be so happy for us
womanonfire: please do and cc: me
womanonfire: this network of ours has worked its magic
zuper8: i'd cc everything to you, but i'm afraid i'd overload your mailbox
womanonfire: :)
zuper8: i think i don't send an e-mail without hinting to our love
womanonfire -> zuper8: only you
zuper8: this network... has brought us paradise
womanonfire -> zuper8: the music is very loud
zuper8: (private) only you
zuper8: (private) (i'm a bit behind, i'll ff a bit)
zuper8: (private) i admire you
womanonfire -> zuper8: i dont know that my friends will be sympathetic but they love me so they will understand
womanonfire -> zuper8: years of frustration lay down side by side
zuper8: (private) wait till they see us together: they will understand
womanonfire -> zuper8: and its only you who can turn my wooden heart
zuper8: (private) only you
zuper8: (private) yes
zuper8: (private) carressing the keyboard again...
womanonfire -> zuper8: mmmmmmm......
zuper8: (private) azazazazazazazazazazaz
womanonfire -> zuper8: you should sleep
womanonfire -> zuper8: i will stay up for both of us
zuper8: (private) i always imagine you being in the audience on the portishead album :)
womanonfire -> zuper8: you sleep for both of us
zuper8: (private) yes i should sleep
zuper8: (private) tomorrow i'm alone with the kids
womanonfire -> zuper8: ok
womanonfire -> zuper8: thats good
womanonfire -> zuper8: and you go away on monday
womanonfire -> zuper8: thats ok
womanonfire -> zuper8: i will keep the faith
zuper8: (private) we need to talk about all this stuff urgently
womanonfire -> zuper8: get through my bullshit here
zuper8: (private) let's sleep first, and think about how and where
womanonfire -> zuper8: yes urgently
zuper8: (private) i can take a plane to anywhere on wednesday
womanonfire -> zuper8: i cant think of anything now except the thng i have torn apart and the thing i am building in its place
zuper8: (private) maybe i could leave from london on tuesday
womanonfire -> zuper8: if you think you can
zuper8: (private) where do you want me?
womanonfire -> zuper8: HERE!!
zuper8: (private) ok, i'm coming
womanonfire -> zuper8: really?
womanonfire -> zuper8: phone!
zuper8: (private) of course!!
womanonfire -> zuper8: marc again
zuper8: (private) i don't have any experience with ordering plane tickets
zuper8: (private) in fact i have never payed one
zuper8: (private) :)
zuper8: (private) i have only flown 3 times
zuper8: (private) :)))))
zuper8: (private) 
zuper8: i will be here
zuper8: hang in there
womanonfire -> zuper8: help me
womanonfire -> zuper8: its so hard
zuper8: i am here
zuper8: i know it is hard
zuper8: it's just now
zuper8: just a little more effort
zuper8: things will be allright soon
zuper8: we all need some time
zuper8: don't phone to long, it won't help either of you now
womanonfire -> zuper8: soooo hard
womanonfire -> zuper8: i love you both
zuper8: i know, my dear
womanonfire -> zuper8:  and youre both here
womanonfire -> zuper8: fucking VIRTUALLY
zuper8: but i have patience
zuper8: i can't stand seeing you hurt, put down that phone
zuper8: 
womanonfire -> zuper8: OH
womanonfire -> zuper8: OUCH
womanonfire -> zuper8: I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO
womanonfire -> zuper8: HELP ME!!!!
zuper8: you have done it already
zuper8: don't turn the dagger around
zuper8: meet him tomorrow, after sleep
zuper8: don't make it worse
zuper8: be calm
zuper8: be rational
womanonfire -> zuper8: RATIONAL
womanonfire -> zuper8: 	has no place
womanonfire -> zuper8: i have to go dotn
womanonfire -> zuper8: dont worry
womanonfire -> zuper8: i have to go
womanonfire -> zuper8: i have to go
womanonfire -> zuper8: good night
womanonfire -> zuper8: on that cloud number 9
zuper8: where are you going?
womanonfire -> zuper8: i just have to go and think and think and thinkk without either of you
zuper8: :)
zuper8: good
womanonfire -> zuper8: bye 4 now
womanonfire -> zuper8: olny the software