zuper8: did you get a bad habit of getting up early?
Au-: yes and it all your fault:-)
zuper8: :)
zuper8: some things require awakeness :)
Au-: are you the one who has the most to offer me?
zuper8: yes
Au-: oh really
zuper8: :)
zuper8: i can lick your tears
Au-: makinglove is one thing
zuper8: makingart another
Au-: yes!
zuper8: makingbiz yet another
Au-: but you dont need me for that
zuper8: laughingtalking moremoremoremore
zuper8: i do need you for that
zuper8: but this should be about what you need
Au-: right
Au-: um
Au-: i need beauty and light and a fast net connection
Au-: hahahaha
Au-: no really
zuper8: there is light in the AM part of day ;D
zuper8: an beauty
zuper8: and ADSL in gent
zuper8: :)
Au-: kewl!
zuper8: fastnet slowlove
zuper8: :)
Au-: i also need to not workwork for awhile....
zuper8: kewl!! :D
Au-: i need to artwork
zuper8: i will look after you
Au-: very important
zuper8: i know
Au-: you looking after me
Au-: |-)
Au-: but
zuper8: cook
zuper8: wash
zuper8: clean
zuper8: kiss
Au-: kissssss
zuper8: shelter
zuper8: hold
zuper8: help
zuper8: be
zuper8: drink :)
Au-: smoke
zuper8: well... a little less smoke maybe...
Au-: right!
zuper8: more breath!
Au-: :-)
Au-: europe and you in the spring
zuper8: lots of rain...
Au-: how exciting
zuper8: one spring
zuper8: is all we need
Au-: it feels like if i come there i am sabotaging my project though
zuper8: yawn :)
zuper8: why?
Au-: i will just want to play withy you
zuper8: i will make you work!
Au-: i need to work hard
zuper8: i need to work myself too!
Au-: planning
zuper8: hey... i've been throwing out money lately... time for some to come in again...
Au-: i am up because i am doing just that
zuper8: doing what?
Au-: workworkwork
zuper8: is it fun workwork?
Au-: its amazing ... i was gone all last week but the clients just didnt notice :-)
zuper8: :)
zuper8: we should remember that for the future... :D
Au-: they love my half ass attempts as much as my heart felt efforts
Au-: workwork is easy
zuper8: yes sometimes
Au-: i am sleepy tho
zuper8: (private) your half ass....... mmmmmm
Au-: hahahahahahahah :-)
zuper8: (private) your heart felt...... |-)
Au-: well michael my angel....
zuper8: yes?
Au-: its like this
Au-: i want tostay for comfort
Au-: but
Au-: i want to go for adventure and you
Au-: i need
zuper8: i am both comfort and adventure
Au-: to artwork desperately and have my big project be a sucess or i'll never forgive myself for letting it fail
zuper8: just have fun with it
Au-: i ve thought about it alot
zuper8: it will be great
Au-: this whole thing
Au-: i wish marc wouldn't be so inflexible
zuper8: me too
Au-: but he is hurt and sees you as a threat
Au-: pulling me away
Au-: distracting me
Au-: i dont
Au-: see you as a distraction but and inspiration
Au-: -d
Au-: he can help me make this thing really great
Au-: but at the expense of some happiness at first
zuper8: i can help you too
Au-: i think if i stay we can work out our problems (alot of work that will be)
zuper8: are you sure he can help it to become really great?
zuper8: ***really*** great?
zuper8: ***really*** sure?
Au-: he has gone into overdrive with organic programming
Au-: shown me stuff
Au-: we talk about how the aite can live
Au-: site
Au-: its hard to explain
Au-: but since he has been involved from the beginning he understands what i am trying to do
zuper8: do you believe in what he is doing?
Au-: yes i think he is the best programmer i have ever seen... he knows alot 
Au-: he is creative at it 
zuper8: good, then you should work with him
Au-: hes just been lazy in the past
zuper8: but if i understand it well, working with him means cutting all connections between you and me...
Au-: yes see theres the problem
Au-: so cruelly its almost like kill my love for you vs make something ive always wanted to make
zuper8: well, the most important thing for me is my work, so i guess for you it's the same, so i guess you don't have a choice
Au-: i do value his love 
Au-: but i value yours too
Au-: its like past vs future
zuper8: pity that work for me includes you
Au-: in a way
zuper8: so you choose past?
zuper8: i thought you were the progressive one? ;)
Au-: i want what is present
Au-: not this indecision but
Au-: to come to gent for awhile
Au-: then come back 
zuper8: that's all i'm asking
Au-: work with both of you
Au-: i know what you are asking
zuper8: and with lots more people
Au-: yes lots more people
Au- -> zuper8: i love you
zuper8: (private) i know
zuper8: (private) i know what you want
zuper8: (private) i think i understand the problem
zuper8: (private) i will love you no matter what
Au-: good
zuper8: so now there's really no choice anymore...
zuper8: choose one and loose the other
zuper8: or choose the other and keep the one
zuper8: hahaha
Au- -> zuper8: hhahaha
zuper8: i'm not very good at advertising...
Au- -> zuper8: not very funny
zuper8: (private) no, it's very painful
zuper8: (private) but, go my butterfly
zuper8: (private) go where your firy soul takes you
zuper8: (private) you have to bloom
Au- -> zuper8: if you are still available maybe i can run away in the fall... ha ha ha
Au- -> zuper8: :-(
zuper8: (private) not very funny
Au- -> zuper8: no very painful
zuper8: so, this is goodbye
Au- -> zuper8: yes :~(
Au- -> zuper8: NO!
zuper8: (private) i know you will regret this
zuper8: (private) as soon as you will be gone you will want to turn back
Au- -> zuper8: i know i will too
Au- -> zuper8: i will regret it
Au- -> zuper8: i hate this
zuper8: (private) he cannot make you forget me
Au- -> zuper8: i know
zuper8: (private) i am deep inside you
Au- -> zuper8: yes
zuper8: (private) something in you needs me now
Au- -> zuper8: i am deep inside you
zuper8: (private) something which always existed but was hiding before you met me
zuper8: (private) at least that's how it is for me
zuper8: do you want me to let you go?
Au-: you make me feel like i can have anything... do anything
Au-: go anwhere... talk to anyone
Au-: be whatever i want to be
zuper8: and you make _me_ feel that way
Au-: together taking over the world
zuper8: it is the strength we put in each other
zuper8: and i believe we can do it
Au-: yes
zuper8: i truly do
zuper8: we're unbeatable together
Au-: sigh
Au-: let me go now
zuper8: ok
Au-: i will email you
zuper8: are you sure?
zuper8: stupid question
zuper8: sorry
zuper8: fade...
Au-: no i am not sure (stupid question)
Au-: fade....